Lying in Black

I hear piercing cries
from the girl -lying- in black
and I ignore her

Who used Who?

Once upon a time
He walked a golden road
Then this dark stranger appeared
he offered a deal to the boy

Open this box
and accept
this forbidden power
accept it into your veins

What, when...why???
But he never said
The boy opened the box
finding his superiority

He ignited
his funeral pyre
and sadly enough
I helped

Surrogate

I found myself today
I found out that I wasn't real
Someone lied to me
and told me that I couldn't feel

that I couldn't bleed
blank expressions on my face
I knew I couldn't be
But you forced me to be...

Your surrogate
your tourniquet
I'll be laughing
When I disappear from here

Your surrogate
your tourniquet
What will you do
When I disappear from you

I knew this from the start
I knew I'd tear myself apart
I felt the pain from within
I felt the pain in my heart

Well try to break me down
I'll try to stand my ground
I feel like I've been forsaken
From lies that were taken

Your surrogate
your tourniquet
I'll be laughing
When I disappear from here

Your surrogate
your tourniquet
What will you do
When I disappear from you

Time ticks away

Time is ticking away in my head
Skimming books that I've already read
Time keeps ticking away in my head
Live or die, rather be dead instead

I just can't believe it
Your presence in this place
I just can't explain it
That smile on your face

Run to my arms and hold me close...so
I gain the strength to never let go
All the depths of love I have for thee'
I expose it all for you to see

Time is ticking away in my head
Skipping rocks that I've already tread
Time stays ticking away in my head
Live or die, rather be dead instead

That pauper just wanted to get laid
With all the reckless choices he's made
Takes time writing his memento mori
The phantastical story of me

Receipe for Happiness

I feel as though I'm dying
as I take two steps onto the floor
I'm standing on used needles again
Why not...I'm sure I could use some more

Crawling down to the bathroom
To clean the dry blood from my nose
If anyone would have saw me...
They would have told me to use the hose

I return home from my day with a garbage bag of goodies
Things that not even junkies would try
Which is perfect to have a horrible time.
It really doesn't matter to me...I just wanna die

I spike my vein with a used needle...again
I slowly begin to feel the pressure build in my head
10-20-30 seconds and I'm still not feeling shit
So fuck the drugs, pull the trigger, and volia! DEAD.